Tuesday, November 30, 2004
dimly lit street,
Friday, November 26, 2004
Thursday, November 25, 2004
i suddenly wake up from this dream.
Sunday, November 21, 2004
i'd rather subject myself to 100 tonnes of physical pain
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Friday, November 19, 2004
theres a thousand words that i could say
Thursday, November 18, 2004
i couldnt tell you
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
now youre gone
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
i thought i lost you somewhere
Monday, November 15, 2004
Saturday, November 13, 2004
i dun think i can change.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
to the world, you may mean nothing.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
clench my fists, and feel my nails digging into my flesh;
Sunday, November 07, 2004
you're such a jerk.
Monday, November 01, 2004
bleh. dad juz finished teaching maths.
in the dead of night.
you lie in bed
sound asleep
shadow moving ever so surreptitiously
in the deserted streets outside.
climb over the gate
and into your house.
peer into the window
and your pretty face comes to view.
other side of me says,
she caused you all this pain.
are you gonna go all soft?
jaw clenched.
clamber through the window
like a silent predator.
blade in hand.
over your neck.
tears form in my eyes.
close them tight.
and an ear-piercing scream that tore into the night.
lights flick on.
body close to the wall.
figure walks through the doorway
killer instinct kicks in
spins around swiftly
wrist flicks with a jerk.
blade leaves hand
body falls fast
cold to the touch
two lives a night
is more than enough.
a hasty getaway.
silhouette at the window
and through the corner of his eye,
the shadow whizzes out of sight.
ive got the guts, the blade and.
your address.
i just need to hate you.
watch me turn everything i am into hatred;
if i turned everything i am into hatred,
i'd kill you.
etched at 10:39 PM
wheres the light that used to shine
whenever i felt so down
why do i
feel so pathetic
so empty and all broken
in a complete dilemma
maybe i'm just a loser
tricked by cupid. wtf
why did you pick me
made me feel so aliv
i should have juz said no
and i wouldnt have been such a fool
i cant even bring myself to say hi
etched at 3:19 AM
like the sky's fallen down,
or rather, fallen on me.
vision so obscured,
even i dont know where i'm going.
fight.. or flight.
resistance, or attraction..
and i cant see the path in front of me.
nothing.
carelessness is not an option.
i cant afford to go the wrong way.
no-go area here, yet i see a faint road leading somewhere.
everything's juz so difficult, aint it.
etched at 1:32 AM
then an ounce of emotional pain.
etched at 11:59 PM
i should have told you
from the start
that i'm closer than you think when we're apart
i swear i'm giving up my inside to the one
that i adore
i know this world is big enough for you and i
but i'll give you more
i'm coming home today to wipe the tear drops
from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done has ever been for one
without you my life is incomplete my days are
absolutely grey
and so i try to let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more
to tell you every single day
my life is incomplete my rights are
absolutely wrong
so wake me up before you leave today
something i need to say
cuz there will be nothing when
youre gone.
iloveyou.
etched at 11:58 PM
to make you come home
oh, seems so long ago you walked away
left me alone
and i remember what you said to me
you were acting so strange
and maybe i was too blind to see
that you needed a change
was it something i said
to make you turn away
to make you walk out and leave me cold
if i could just find a way
to make it so that you were right here
right now
now, i dont wanna make excuses
wont change the fact that youre gone
but if theres something that i could do
wont you please let me know
time is passing so slowly now
guess that's my life without you
and maybe i could change my every day
but baby i dont want to
so i'll just hang around
and find some things to do
to take my mind off missing you
and i know in my heart
you can't say that you don't love me too
please say you do
ive been sitting here
cant get you off my mind
ive tried my best to be a man and be strong
i drove myself insane
wishing i could touch your face
but the truth remains, your gone
whatll i do
if i cant be with you
tell me where will i turn to
baby who will i be
now that we are apart
am i still in your heart
baby why dont you see
that i need you here with me
iloveyou.
etched at 11:59 PM
why she felt that way
she felt it everyday
whats wrong, whats wrong now
too many, too many problems
dont know where she belongs
where she belongs
she wants to go home but nobodys home
thats where she lies
broken inside
no place to go, no place to go
to dry herhis eyes
broken inside
open your eyes
and look outside
find the reason why
youve been rejected
and now you cant find
what you left behind
her feeling she hides
her dream she can't findshes losing herhis mind
shes fallen behind
she cant find herhis place
shes losing herhis faith
shes fallen from grace
shes all over the place
pieces of me.
its sad
to look back at the times when we could always find smth to talk about,
and cant find anything to say now.
sometimes memories can be more impt than love itself.
iloveyou.
etched at 11:59 PM
now youre gone
there you go
there you go
somewhere i cant bring you back
now youre gone
now youre gone
there you go
there you go
somewhere youre not coming back
the day you slipped away
was the day i found
it wont be the same.
i miss you.
iloveyou.
etched at 11:59 PM
but you were never really ever there at all
its alright, i'm ok
i think god can explain
i believe i'm the same
i get carried away
its alright, i'm ok
i think god can explain
i'm relieved, i'm relaxed
i'll get over it, yeah
i'll get off of your back
so i'm counting my tears
till i get over you
we both know that i'm not over you
and i thought holding on was tough.
letting go is hell.
iloveyou.
etched at 1:14 AM
picture perfect.
and im in this dream,
where everything was fine, it seems.
and im so afraid of waking,
but i guess ur juz not for taking.
im in a tunnel,
hurt, lost, left out in the dark,
kicked and feel like ive been pushed arnd.
alone.
i dont see the light at the end of the tunnel.
and i hear the train coming.
see its lights against the walls.
its over.
all is lost.
dont mourn over my death;
celebrate my life.
iloveyou.
etched at 1:37 AM
i cant.
dun expect me to.
especially since i've built my world around you.
and i'll wait.
time is only an obstacle.
every obstacle is a hurdle.
we'll jump over every hurdle with ease.
cuz every hurdle will bring us closer.
and i'll do anything
you ever dreamed to be complete.
i think about you all the time,
but i dont need the same.
from now till forever.
thats how long i'll be true.
iloveyou.
etched at 12:38 AM
but to somebody, you may mean the world.
and when everything's made to be broken,
i juz want you to know who i am.
iloveyou.
etched at 6:04 PM
hold on too tight, and experience pain.
i can stand pain;
but i cant lose you.
its hard holding you, loving you, losing you.
iloveyou.
etched at 3:34 AM
etched at 12:45 AM
differentiation. phooey. kinda hard to understand some shit.
but other than the understanding, its pretty simple. lol.
ur juz doing the same thing for every question. so its kinda standard la.
anyway. today went out to catch ladder 49 with zee. my study buddyy. hahah. =D
movie was pretty good. i like the way the they put it across. all the flashbacks and stuff.
and it was kinda touching. haha. zee was like, kinda sniffing a lil.
then riana called. hahaha.
abt my money thingy la. she owes me thirty.
oh, and on the way out, i saw moses and christian with brother jason. hahah.
after that, took a seven home.
then i remembered i was supposed to pick fran up at redhill station. haha.
she wanted me to pick her up.
well, thats what she said. i conviniently left out the 'i was joking' part.
hahahaha.
she kept me waiting for forty mins though. hurhur.
but oh well, it was raining heavy, so..
anyway, stopped at buona vista, then took a 92.
whooo. been ages since i took that bus.
the last time i took it was.. when it was still called M1. HAHAH.
stopped uh. 2 stops after henry park. yep.
the newly invented stop. hahaha.
walked fran home in the rain. so coldd.
she offered her umbrella, but. forget it.
it was PINK. so yeah. no. hahahah.
went back home.
then took a nice and warm shower. =D
played maplestory after that. hahahaha.
then had earlier dinner.
cuz rents were having a meeting at 8 in the living room. so yep.
then went on the comp again.
then dad taught math.
then now here. yah. haha.
kk, think i'll go now. feeling damn tired.
ciao`
etched at 11:12 PM